Tag Archives: pain

But It Is Good For Me To Be Near God

Posted on February 3, 2018 by anyushka

Reproach has broken my heart, and it cannot be healed; * I looked for sympathy, but there was none, for comforters, but I could find no one. They gave me gall to eat, * and when I was thirsty, they … Continue reading →

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Always Moving Towards Resurrection

Posted on January 28, 2018 by anyushka

“The Resurrection is not a one-time miracle that proved Jesus was God. Jesus’ death and resurrection name and reveal what is happening everywhere and all the time in God and in everything God creates. Reality is always moving toward resurrection. […] Resurrection is … Continue reading →

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The Battle is Yours

Posted on January 17, 2018 by anyushka

Trigger warning: (indirect) mention of child abuse This is a follow up post to In You I Trust. I’m just reading the texts for today, and it’s David and Goliath, which seems rather appropriate, considering what we’re up against and … Continue reading →

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In You I Trust

Posted on January 13, 2018 by anyushka

Trigger warning: mention of child abuse In a few previous posts, I’ve talked about my family, about my abusive father, co-dependent family dynamics, and about the silence of my mother and siblings who are protecting him.  I’ve done a lot … Continue reading →

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Blue Christmas

Posted on December 25, 2017 by anyushka

It’s not a cheery Christmas for me this year. And I’m quite aware that I’m not alone with that.  But it’s still true that God is with us. That God came as a little child, vulnerable and dependent on the … Continue reading →

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A Blessing for Traveling in the Dark

Posted on December 20, 2017 by anyushka

Go slow if you can. Slower. More slowly still. Friendly dark or fearsome, this is no place to break your neck by rushing, by running, by crashing into what you cannot see. Then again, it is true: different darks have … Continue reading →

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Blessing When the World is Ending

Posted on November 29, 2017 by anyushka

Look, the world is always ending somewhere. Somewhere the sun has come crashing down. Somewhere it has gone completely dark. Somewhere it has ended with the gun, the knife, the fist. Somewhere it has ended with the slammed door, the … Continue reading →

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What We Can’t Say

Posted on September 24, 2017 by anyushka

Today, a man got stabbed in my neighbourhood. On a road I cross almost daily, a road I had crossed just an hour before someone else did, someone who had a knife in their hand. And a man got stabbed … Continue reading →

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100 Questions/ 1-10

Posted on August 6, 2017 by anyushka

1. What’s the toughest decision you made today? To keep going to the best of my abilities, to do the best I can for myself, to live as well as I am able to, despite the things in my life … Continue reading →

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Never Failed Me Yet

Posted on April 14, 2017 by anyushka

It is tradition in my Community to pray together around the cross on Good Friday. I have been doing this most years for quite some time now, but I feel today moved me more than any other year before. It was … Continue reading →

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