Tag Archives: loneliness

Blue Christmas

Posted on December 25, 2017 by anyushka

It’s not a cheery Christmas for me this year. And I’m quite aware that I’m not alone with that.  But it’s still true that God is with us. That God came as a little child, vulnerable and dependent on the … Continue reading →

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The Grace of Solitude

Posted on October 9, 2015 by anyushka

“Fellowship with Christ is a table only for two — set in the wilderness. Inwardness is not a gaudy party, but the meeting of lovers in the lonely desert of the human heart. There, where all life and fellowship can … Continue reading →

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What I Don’t Know, Don’t Have and Can’t Do

Posted on July 5, 2015 by anyushka

I’m struggling at the moment, and have been for a few months now, with my anxiety levels. I put myself under a lot of pressure, as if there was a law about having made all major life choices before I’m … Continue reading →

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And Did You Get What You Wanted From This Life

Posted on April 10, 2015 by anyushka

Late Fragment And did you get what you wanted from this life, even so? I did. And what did you want? To call myself beloved, to feel myself beloved on the earth. Raymond Carver ————————- That’s what it all comes … Continue reading →

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Literary Remedy

Posted on March 1, 2015 by anyushka

I hit one of those “fuck-I-hate-to-be-alone” days today. The kind of day when the sun shines and the birds sing and it could be wonderful, and nothing, nothing feels right or worth anything because there’s no-one to share it with. … Continue reading →

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There Is Someone I Must Become

Posted on February 4, 2015 by anyushka

“My loneliness attracts me to the feet of Jesus. Like a magnet I am drawn there, longing to be all one with God. The separateness I keep choosing makes me desperately homesick, and so I am willing, at last, to … Continue reading →

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Wanted. Alive.

Posted on December 9, 2014 by anyushka

A little while ago, I was at a Eucharist where the priest read the story of Jesus at the wedding feast in Cana (the water-into-wine one, yes), as a description of God’s kingdom – it’s a party, a celebration. And … Continue reading →

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Pray For Those Who Hide Their Pain

Posted on August 13, 2014 by anyushka

As many of the people around me, I have been deeply affected by the news this week that Robin Williams took his own life – a message and reminder to all of us of the pain and darkness that is hidden in … Continue reading →

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Rambling. About the Religious Life. And Relationships. And the Ark. And Stuff.

Posted on July 31, 2014 by anyushka

Generally, people do think it’s crazy when they hear I’m praying and pondering about the religious life as a possible (or even likely?) future for myself. Understandably. The things I would give up on for this.  And yes, I’m very … Continue reading →

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