Trigger warning: (indirect) mention of child abuse
This is a follow up post to In You I Trust.
I’m just reading the texts for today, and it’s David and Goliath, which seems rather appropriate, considering what we’re up against and the level of fear we’re dealing with.
I have spoken to my sister (context in previous post). She has indeed been contacted by the police, and has had a meeting with them this morning – I will hear more about that tonight. Our conversation last night was both emotionally difficult and overwhelming but also, surprisingly, better than expected. Mainly because she does not hate me for having taken the step of reporting our father to the police. That’s much better than I expected.
This does not mean anything is easy from here on, far from it. But it seems like, perhaps, we will be able to live through this as siblings, our brother included as well, instead of this being me on my own. And I’m grateful and I thank God for that. I might yet have family there, there might yet be relationships that can be restored.
Unsurprisingly, I was unable to sleep last night after our conversation, despite being really tired. I’ve taken time off sick to look after myself today and tomorrow. I need to take the pressure off around work, otherwise it’s likely I would end up with panic attacks etc. I hope I’ll manage without that.
My friends have been absolutely wonderful, and I am so grateful for them. Their prayers, their presence and their words of encouragement and support mean more than I could ever tell them.
If you are the praying kind, please send prayers, to me and my family. We need them, now and in the months to come. Please pray in particular that the children will be safe, and that nobody else gets harmed in any way in this process.
“But David said to the Philistine, ‘You come to me with sword and spear and javelin; but I come to you in the name of the Lord of hosts, the God of the armies of Israel, whom you have defied […] so that all the earth may know that there is a God in Israel, and that all this assembly may know that the Lord does not save by sword and spear; for the battle is the Lord’s and he will give you into our hand.’”
1 Samuel 17: from 45-47