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I doubt my choices; yet I am too young to feel regret.
I hear the echo of too many voices and forget
to trust my own and what its truth may be.
It’s fear that speaks in me of “never”, “nowhere”, “nobody”.
I am too young to feel regret; I have yet ways to go.
Time tails my every step, a constant threat, a debt I owe
myself – an obligation undeclared,
impossible to pay then, even if I dared
to try this last potential path that comes to mind,
eyes closed to this worst risk of all – that I won’t find
an open door to reach this one remaining thought,
blind to the right road that persists unknown, and hence, unsought.
…
the right door. will always open. and there will be Light.
and those 3 words of darkness…… they only are whispered by a liar, meant to turn you from the open door. ((Anyushka)) Debi
thank you for the encouragement…! these ghosts visit quite regularly, and I hope the poem might help to expel them this time, just by naming them…
you are so right! naming and identifying does help 🙂