Lent is slowly but surely drawing to a close, and I wonder: has it been what I intended it to be? Probably not. So what has it been then?
I’m not entirely sure what’s been going on, but it seems there are interior road works happening in me – I need an extraordinary amount of solitude and silence at the moment. I can’t take in much at all that’s happening around me because the wheels are turning inside.
Bit like what I’ve experienced on retreats, which points to changes happening as well.
The wheels are creaking, it’s no smooth ride…
Where is this going…?
I’m processing work relationships and conflicts, I’m processing how I deal (or don’t deal) with conflict, I ponder my calling, I’m shaping new puzzle pieces without knowing yet what the full picture is going to be.
While all this is going on, I create and surround myself with creativity. Sustenance for the process. Fuel and balance at the same time.
I wonder what Holy Week will be like. If the wheel will halt in a new place, or if the whole thing will keep moving on throughout Eastertide.
Am I only going in circles, or is God doing a new thing?
I just read back to this post at the beginning of Lent. God is responding.
